Scribbles On My Heart

Tell me how to break this cage and set myself free, How can I not be scared, When life threatens to unleash the worst part of me. I have been through this before, This fear, this pain, And I know where all this is heading to, But I don't wanna be that person again. Where are all the colours gone? All I see is Black and White. Frozen and hopeless, Dark and cold, Now, this is what I have become, But still desperate to see that light. My mind feels trapped, in the chain of unwanted thoughts, And I sit to pen them down. And ask myself yet again, the same questions, Why are these voices in my head so loud? Should I sleep through this chaos or cry it out? -SJ

Puffy eyes, broken heart and a forced smile, This is my last memory of you. I saw you breakdown, as I left forever. Wish, I could have stayed a bit longer, to console you. While you shed your tears for me, I wanted to hold you. I apologize for the promises that I have left behind, unfulfilled. Now that I am gone, I want you to stay strong and chase your dreams. You were not alone and never will be, I won’t be by your side, But I know you will remember me. Find me in the stories I narrated, In the books, that you thought were too overrated. Hear my old school songs with smile, Wear your favourite cap with pride. And yes, do always remember To water the rose, we planted together. You are like the rose,   so lively and beautiful, Yes you have brightened my life With your lovely soul and sweetest smile. Now that I am gone, My heart aches to see you so lonely Don’t be afraid to fall in love again. Oh love, live ...

The breeze was warm, smelled saline. And vast blue carpet, reflected in her eyes. There were courses untravelled, paths unknown, But she enjoyed the voyage, discovering the places that her ship explored. She was all alone in the sea vessel, Here she found solace, it was her castle. The journey was long, tides high and low. But the sea was calm, and she had started slow. Though her elated heart leaped with joy, And a sweet smile adored her lips. Somewhere in the corner her heart cringed. Old fear triggered, at the grim reminder, If her ship gets wrecked, no one will ever find her. She stared blankly at the sky, And shivered at the thunderbolts. Nature started to portray scenes from her foreboding. But she was not surprised. Coz her mind was prepared for the worst, yet to come. The breeze turned into strong wind. No more warmth it radiated, only gave her chills. The ship toppled in the whirling storm, She watched in horror as her home was gone. Sinking...

Echo of my breath swallowed the silence of night, As I stood by the window, Carrying the shattered pieces of my heart, Wishing you were by my side. I stare at the street lamp, under which we first met. And created memories, hard to forget. Today again it stands still, but brightness dimmed, By the darkness in my life, that you left behind. So I close the window to cut the view, of the street lamp, that reminds me of you. But now I catch myself staring, at my hands, that once held yours. Fingers inter wined, And everything was perfectly fine. Best thing about me was always you. Those smiles, those blushes, those lingering feelings, have now faded forever. I am all alone, left with a wounded heart, that still needs healing. Every time I keep missing you like a freak. Without you, I feel suffocating, In a life so colourless and bleak. Storm of emotions keep whirling inside, but my numb heart only cries. Blinking back tears, Struggling to stay stron...

While the whirling storm of emotions kept hurting me inside, I tried my best, not to lose my composure, And faked a smile. They say I am bold, They say I am rude. But no one cares to have a look, At those wounds, That I've been hiding all the way through. They say, "Time heals everything." But when I look into the mirror. I can still see those scars, Engraved on my heart, crimson red. No matter how far I run away, Pretending to be okay. The same thought keeps spinning in my head. Will time heal everything as they said?

Sitting under the shades of heaven, I gaze at the glazing stars. The shimmering moonlight mirrored in my eyes for hours, Reflected in me bleak thoughts in scores, The one that I had never encountered before. Yes, I was strong But I realized something that proved me wrong. I was always the one to win over a strife. But now I sit here like a funk scared for my life. By the fear of death, is now my mind shadowed. My radiance of hope is slowly gonna be faded. I could hear the symphony of my silver tears, Which dampen my cheeks with jet of fear. As time flew, my hope gave way, Oh, I know, the clock even ticks the life away. I want this storm to be pacified, I need assistance for this riddle to be clarified. My heart is bruised by these thoughts so deterrent, I wanna set myself free, from this intimidating enchantment. So, I wait here for the light on the horizon, To see what is it a harbinger of in my life's Caspian, A stellar of bliss or horrifying Stygian....